"Lord, I have gone to you for safety. Don't let me ever be put to shame. Save me because You do what is right. Pay attention to me. Come quickly to help me. Be the rock I go to for safety...Lead me and guide me for the honor of Your name...Into Your hands I commit my very life. Lord, set me free.You are my faithful God....I will be glad and full of joy because You love me...My whole life is in Your hands...Let Your face smile on me with favor." From Psalm 31 NIRV
Today marks a new beginning and the range of my emotions is vast. I feel both relieved and scared. I am believing that the next six months will be better than the last. I am finally trusting that God has made the path clear and yet, I know that though I have been set free, this is an inexplicable knowledge not easily translated and if I've ever needed to cling, it is now.
The 'today' I spoke of was Monday. Today it is Wednesday. Happy 4th of July!
I've been doing a lot of this lately - starting a post and finding difficulty in finishing. It could be writer's block but I suspect the block is more circumstantial than anything else. I still find it a bit challenging to not only know what to reveal during these times of change, but also to just allow myself to feel it enough to write it.
But today, I woke up....happy. It's a feeling I haven't fully experienced in a bit. I've felt moments of peace and serenity, I've been able to laugh and I've attempted something close to hope but happiness has somewhat eluded me through this process.
But here it was this morning!
"Weeping may remain for a night but rejoicing comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5 NIV1984
Maybe, it's that today is a day of freedom. While we celebrate our country's freedom, I'm also celebrating my freedom in Christ- freedom from the bondage of sin. It could also be the weather. I was up early and it is cool and breezy. It even sprinkled for just a few minutes.
"Be glad...rejoice in the Lord your God, for he has given you the autumn rains in righteousness, He sends you abundant showers, both autumn and spring rains, as before." Joel 2:23 NIV1984
Summer showers, too! There is a fresh season settling, and many changes already underfoot. I have that slightly giddy sensation that flutters to the stomach when you know everything's going to get turned around.
It feels like a new year. So, happy independence day and happy new year!