I have not been able to blog lately. I'm not entirely sure what the problem is. I continue to start posts and then realize I'm saying nothing so I save for later. Going back, I find nothing worth revising.
I've been more tired than usual so that could have something to do with it. But really, I think I'm just dry. Spiritually dry and nothing is flowing.
I was telling my sponsor the other day how incredibly busy I was. This, my excuse for not making step work a priority. And I believed what I was saying. Until a few days ago when I was on the computer playing spider solitaire (which I think may need to be uninstalled) and I realized, Oh, well here's some extra time I'm just wasting.
So, is it procrastination? Avoidance? I don't know. But I know that the more time I spend in the Word, the more enlightened and inspired I feel. The more I allow myself to get trapped in pointless time sucks like Facebook or Words with Friends, the more blah I feel. Hungry but not satisfied.
And there's a million things I should be feeling inspired about. The kids are starting school, my own life is changing in a drastic and good way very soon and I have an opportunity I've only previously dreamed about.
Maybe I feel like I'm on hold. Or in limbo. The kids start school Friday. I start my new endeavor next week and my dream opportunity is waiting only for me to finish the hard work. And I keep thinking when all that starts, I'll get a new schedule, really get down to work. But that's a bit ridiculous. So.....I'm posting. Crap or not. Because not doing so seems to leave me in a rut.
Or maybe I can get a job playing spider solitaire.